I wrote my first post for this blog on 30 May 2013. It feels like I’ve come a long way since then. The post below is one of the first ones I wrote. I talked about my habit of procrastinating. I still do that I’m afraid but usually not about blogging.
The last month or two I have cut back on my writing on both blogs. Not intentionally, I’ve been a bit distracted. I had a week off from the Op Shop after Easter and thought I would have time to write more but I didn’t. We had a busy month after we came back and I spent a lot of time reading and writing about the upcoming election. After the results came out last week I didn’t really feel like reading or writing anything for a few days.
I think that I am one of the bloggers who relies a lot on photographs to help tell my stories and lately I have not been out and about with my camera. I’ve learned to take a lot of photos of things around the home but I was getting tired of that too.
Usually with me, the longer I leave something the harder it is to get back to it so it was good to reread this early post and remind myself of what I was trying to do in the beginning. I haven’t changed anything in it just corrected some typos. I think that only three or four people actually read it, my first months as a blogger were not stellar so it will be new to most of you.
After writing this piece I went on and wrote four more in the next month and have now passed 1,300 posts of my own. Quite a few of them have been ranty ones and I expect there will be more in the future.
Procrastinating is something I am very good at. Like most of us, I procrastinate about things I don’t want to do, going to the doctor or dentist, unpleasant household chores, making phone calls to name a few. However, I have a bad habit of procrastinating about things that I do want to do. Maybe I’m just lazy. I want to finish scrapbooking projects, do other craftwork, go for walks more often but I get distracted by small things and then I think “It’s too late, I’ll do it tomorrow.” Sometimes I even find myself doing busywork to justify not starting something I meant to do.
When I started this blog it was because I thought that I’d like to write more often and about more subjects than my doll collection. Since then I’ve looked at some of the writing challenges, been interested in some but not actually written anything because I didn’t know how to start or because I didn’t feel that I could write as well as others on the same subject. I’ve got mad at the television on umpteen occasions when I’ve seen trailers of programs that annoy me or when my husband watches the fourth episode of “Pawn Stars” in a day (Rick Harrison really annoys me.) I had meant to write about all these reality programs and why they annoy me so much. Why have I not done that? (Note: I have done that. Frequently I think.)
It is because it worries me that people will disagree with what I say and might criticise me. I know I would find that hurtful even though I also know that I’m not alone in feeling that way. It shouldn’t really matter to me if people I don’t know and will never meet think that I am ignorant or that I write badly. It would worry me more if people I know thought that about me, even though they would probably be nice and not tell me. I can’t deny that I’m lacking in self-confidence and don’t like confrontation but I’ve decided that as far as blogging goes I’m going to try.
If I don’t write anything I won’t get any better so I’ll just put down what comes to mind and maybe as I go on it will get easier. I will write about the things that annoy me and why. No doubt there will be negative comments sometimes but I will try to deal with them. I expect it will be good for me and help me get out of my comfort zone.